These Are My Intelligent Thoughts

Ok so this is what I think.

I think that. I am drunk, and therefore, at this very moment in time can see things relatively clearly and for what they are. It's like, sometimes alcohol helps you shed that illusion of every day life, those blinders that you are conditioned to put on.

I also think that. Tomorrow I may or may not be hung over and think that I was acting like an idiot last night (tonight). At this particular point of date and time, I do not care about that. It's sad when you feel like you need to be sedated at work just to wake you up. I mean....PeopleSoft reports and trying to suck up to your boss...is that really living?? IS IT? No it's not. But let me tell you. You really need that to survive right now. Because times are tough and we haven to be grateful we even have jobs. But does that mean we don't question what is right for us because we have secure jobs?? Does it??? Offices put us in such a comfort zone that it is almost impossible to escape unless you have the luxury of being fired. And then you have the luxury of not making money. Awesome because you don't have to put up with a DICK OF A BOSS anymore, but sucky because...well...you're not making any money.

Why is it at the times when I feel most fucked up are the times I feel so alive? Like everything makes sense but is all fucked up at the same time.

AFTER DRUNKEN NOTE: It's two days after I was drunk and I just found this on my computer. I am posting.